D73 – The Secret Baggage in My Basement

If you have more than just 10-20 pounds to lose, then you probably have the same thing in your basement that I do: a stockpile of clothes in smaller (and larger) sizes that are waiting for that magical day when you can once again wear them. It wasn’t until just recently that I realized how insane this is. It’s like baggage weighing me down, anchored in my basement. It’s all the things I’ve loved in the past that no longer fit me because I’m TOO FAT. And, there is even a box of things I love that are too big for me because I’ve lost 85 pounds. I keep them, just in case I go back there! WHAT? That is a hug mistake. Today I got rid of that box and sorted out all the rest. I got rid of all the crap I’m really never going to wear and I’m keep things that I can see I will fit into in the next year as I keep losing weight.

Now, you might ask “What’s the big deal?” It IS a big deal to keep all of this stuff. I’ve had some of it for 40 years! Number one, most of it’s out of style, but, number two, and more importantly, it’s a constant reminder that I’m not who I “should be.” That I’ve gained tons of weight over the years and I’m bad. When I am in the basement, I see these boxes and often think about how much I suck. And, in the case of the “fat clothes box,” I’m sabotaging keeping the weight off by having a Plan B. It’s a physical reminder that I might gain it back.

So, I’ve gotten rid of tons of it, including ALL of the “fat clothes” and I’ve made a promise that if I can’t wear it by summer, it all goes. It’s time to live in the present and stop letting those boxes in my basement drag me down.