I have always been the kind of person that wants immediate results. If I don’t see them, I get easily stopped. This is why weight loss has always been so difficult for me. While the results ALWAYS show up eventually, they don’t necessarily show up immediately after all your hard work. Sometimes, the results are delayed. “Delay” is a swear word for me. I WANT IMMEDIATE GRATIFICATION. This is probably why I’m fat; I eat, I feel good… immediately, though it may only last for a minute. My tolerance for frustration is low, and when I’m frustrated, guess what… I eat. My patience is low, and when I’m impatient, guess what… I eat. When things are hard and I have to push through… eating makes me feel better. Again, only for a minute, but a minute of good feeling is enough to woo me into over eating. No wonder I’ve struggled with obesity all of my life and even got all the way up to 351 pounds at my highest! I am LITERALLY designed to respond to every emotional situation I face by eating. It’s SO FRUSTRATING. (Now I want to eat! *eye roll)
So this morning, when I woke up, psyched about how great I’ve been doing tracking and staying within my calories, I decided I would sneak a look at the scale, because I was certain I would be down another pound or two.
Well, big mistake. I was UP 5 pounds. Now, each pound equals almost 3000 calories, so I know that’s not real. However, it was like a punch in the gut. I immediately wanted to say “Screw this, let’s go through drive-thru!” and then just eat whatever I wanted for the day.
But this is D12 of fighting back. So, instead, I’m taking the opportunity to be strong, lean into the hard thing and make a choice consistent with my commitment for a healthy vibrant future in a thinner body.
I am sure this journey is going to be filled with thousands more of choices like these, so I may as well start practicing be great at altering my programming right now.
#MakeItAnAmazingDay
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