D51 – Sometimes The Truth Hurts

Ugh! I had my annual wellness exam for our health insurance today. It sucked. I hate it. There is nothing more humiliating for a fat girl than being weighed, measured and evaluated by some stranger. He was nice, but holy cow, I KNOW I’M FAT. I don’t need you to make conversation with me about it and reassure me that it’s okay. Barf. I wanted to punch him in the face. His pity was just about more than I could bear.

However, I sucked it up and did what was needed, just smiled and moved on… but once I got home, it was as if there was a cloud of negativity hanging over me. And, no coincidence, all I wanted to do was eat.

Everyone that knows me will say I’m confident and self-assured, but any time you have past trauma, the outside truth doesn’t always match the inside truth. My job is to keep working to get those two parts of me to line up.